Finding the right stride

Its nice and cool tonight. The wind is almost chilly. Hold on, gonna make some hot chocolate.

Okay back to the blog...

I've been in deep thought about many things today. I've been thinking about work and what my future is - or what I want it to be. I vehemently HATE the idea of work. That whole notion of just showing up and collecting a paycheck is a tough one for me to swallow. Remember, I'm just talking about ME. I know we all need to make a living.

I "create" everyday or work in a creative way. I do this every single day. Using creativity is a very big part of my soul. Sometimes I don't feel like designing for clients as I know its just for commercial use, but since they're willing to buy it, becomes work. I get paid. After so many years of doing it for someone else, it really wears on you. I often ask myself what is the higher level of what I'm doing. Is it actually possible? I guess this is where the lines of art and design get blurry. Nowadays, my design work is a little more cerebral and withheld. I don't need to scream my head off - its really easy to shout. I'm feeling a strong need to go off the beaten path or else my soul will be totally sucked out.


Been thinking deeply about Kendo. I've been more focused in class than before, but haven't been training much outside of my home dojo. Mostly because I've had my hands full with work and my weekends are spent working on our house. The Ikkyu gradings are coming up in June. I don't even know if I'll even be here ( SugahDaddy road trip). Hopefully, the timing works out. With this all happening, its hard to keep things in control. I feel I'm improving but always take everything with a grain of salt. I'm not worried too much about conditioning right now, just concentrating on the small basic things I need to fix and own it. It doesn't seem like much, but I know my Kendo will grow by leaps and bounds if I take some time to get the basics polished up.


On a less heavier note:

We finished our "Phase 1" of our kitchen shelves. Finished the low cabinet on Sunday. One project down, one more in he kitchen. Enjoy the pics...

painting

after painting + shelves




In the kitchen.